Consideration…such a short word and so profound meaning…
I wonder how inconsiderate I have been to people….? No
matter how careful I am , I know I have been inconsiderate to some if not all
of the people I have been in contact with, in some level , in some instances of
our inter action.
Consideration or
“pasintabi” as it is known among oldies, or bumusina ka namna or poot poot…when
making comments or acting on some matters where friends or other people will be
affected or we think might be affected.
People have of course shown me consideration , friends and
acquaintances alike. From friends , I
have expectation of consideration. I think this is an expectation we all share,
that we expect our friends to be considerate to us as we are considerate with
them, maybe more. From acquaintances and officemates and people , we interact
with on a regular basis . Maybe this
expectation of consideration being shown to us especially from our friends and
families have been a source of my sadness and disappointment .
Just recently , I cried over what I think is
“inconsideration” from somebody I thought was a friend , who would think twice
or maybe even ask me first . Maybe the deed itself was nothing to be
disappointed about but maybe the hurt
inflicted was caused by the thought that
no consideration on how I would feel
about it is the one eating me. Plus the fact that it was done with someone who
have been inconsiderate with my in so many occasions and I have long known , would never consider being
considerate with me. I felt betrayed , I
felt I have lost a friend because of
this silly thing…
Of course I myself is
guilty of being inconsiderate, maybe guiltier , in some aspects but this does not take away from the hurt or
the thought of being hurt ….. maybe because I know that as far as practicable ,
I have tried to be considerate to both
of them, no matter how I have felt that no consideration was given to my
feelings , my situation on so many occasions. …I have embrace the fact that some
people simply do not like to be friends with me..they have their reasons and I
am good with that…but coming from somebody you considered your friend eats up
at me……maybe I am afraid to see that I am losing a friend or maybe I was never
her friend …just a client….
There are many maybes and maybe I should not hurt as much , maybe
I should take it in stride , maybe I am just hormonal, or maybe I should really
be hurt since no consideration was shown me ….the fact remains ,however, that I
have been hurt………but hurt is hurt and that was yesterday, today is another
day…let me move onward to more beautiful days in the sun with no baggage(s)
from yesterdays …..
